I’d
ID

starting with I would
I’d

i would you know
I’d totally

ID
ID
ID
controling me for too long

i got no love
today
and that’s ok
i’ll get some
again
some other day
some other day
is cool with me
with someone
i have yet to see
with something
new to
offer me,
cause all i got is me;
this ID
is it
it is so me,
it fits me
to sit in it
so
completely.

i’ll never stop
i’ll never quit
i’ll never give up
“i believe in me
the dream is over
thats reality”
right?

i’m going to write
as
if i were
going to die tomorrow
because i might.

there’s no one for me
no one
oh
so
fucking lonely
don’t look at me
i never want to write
about how beautiful
life can be
if all i feel is this empty
misery

in order to be true to what
i’m doing
i no longer care,
i have no ones image to hurt but my own
by saying i want love more than life itself
drops my guard
you want me guarded.
i am.
i’m not here
i let
these
words
run
down
your
naked body
as if i just
pulled out
of
you
dripping.

See,
i don’t GIVE A FUCK ANYMORE.
IF I GROTESQUE PRUDENCE
I DON’T GIVE A FUCK ANYMORE.
I DON’T WANT PRUDENCE.
PRUDENCE YOU DON’T BELONG HERE
READING MY BLOG
GET THE FUCK OUT OF HERE
DON’T EVEN LOOK AT ME
IF YOU CANT BELIEVE I’M
A FUCKING BARBARIAN
YEAH YOU KNOW THAT I’M A BEAST
I’M A DOG
AND THAT’S IT.

SAVE PRUDENCE
FOR POINDEXTER.
Or some fucking faggot boy
or some born again christian faggoty ass bitch.
i DON’T GIVE A FUCK.
I AM UNTO ME
I AM SET MYSELF FREE
BY KNOWING
THERE WOULD BE NOTHING
PERCEIVED
IF THERE WAS NO ME
TO PERCEIVE
it.

This is the new year so i want to write a poem about the first bit of news i read in 2009:

New years was celebrated in Israel with massive airstrikes
in preperation of a ground invasion of their million man ghetto,
like as if LA were the palestine of california
and we had it all escape from LA status
quarantined from civilized society
left to fend for itself
with barbed wire
and
airstrikes
and a military machine
standing by
to contain
and
liquidate it.

Who keeps shooting rockets at Israel?
Give it up mother fucker
your bringing death to your people,
if you would just allow for
free thought
and allow
for peace
and allow
that you’ll never be
strong enough
to overtake the country of Israel
because they take 400-
for every four you take
STOP FUCKING WITH THEM
your movements leader
and his entire family
of four wives
and nine children
were hit by a missile
and wiped out
because at this point,
after
having nearly been genocided from the earth
by the nazis
they just don’t give a fuck anymore
so leave them alone.
Try to harmonize
you retarded low IQ animals,
the Jews don’t give a fuck anymore,
and they’re more resilient
and tougher than ever
after
surviving
hitler.

contributing nothing advancing
just living
eating
fucking
and dying
like you are to me
like you and everybody else
living until they die
worthlessly
going about
daily routines
until were all buried
in the gorund
and when i’m dead
they’ll remember
i fucking lived.

contributing nothing advancing
just living
eating
fucking
and dying
like you are to me
like you and everybody else
living until they die
worthlessly
going about
daily routines
until were all buried
in the gorund
and when i’m dead
they’ll remember
i fucking lived.

my dad was mean
growing up,
very basic,
very much like
i had to make a very complicated life for myself
as a rebellion against
his black and white nature

and
i am so gray
so high
at this moment
i live for today
i don’t give a fuck about the past
its only a matter
of moments past,
and i want everyone to stay,
but i know
all of us will go.

i realize
that
nothing
was
ever
meant.

you aren’t
here
you’re not
in front of me
you’ve
silently disappeared.

sometimes
when you’re lonely
you get drunk on 99cent store wine
alone
and
moan
until
the pain
in your soul
feels
dull,
and you
fall
asleep,
hoping to dream
of something
better
than this
dream
we’re living.