My heart is elsewhere,
it belongs to a woman who doesn’t want me,
no matter who,
you don’t compare
to the girl i love
who doesn’t want me.

No emotion.
Just heat.
No one wants to love me
they just wanna get fucked,
orgasms like heroin
melting them completely,
like a game,
trying to get the high score.

Emotionally distant to women i meet;
learned from the one i love
who doesn’t want me
that if i want someone
they will not want me back.

They only want you when you don’t give a fuck.
When all you’re down to do is fuck.
And so all these other girls love me,
but they wouldn’t love me
if i showed them affection
beyond the animal act,
making true love
an ultimate fantasy.

when i’m with you,
feeling real cool.

love emotion
flood my soul
don’t let
through…

gotta
keep it cool
around you.

lived and found things
i cherish,

found people i love
more than myself,

if it weren’t for them
i’d be no one

i am
however you perceive me;

i’ve lost self-perception–

a silver lining
a black one
infinity,

i
fucking
care about
everything.

I see you standing there
haunting my desire,
you are all i’ll ever want or need,
i can’t escape my fire.

sang to you
in a dream
and it was as if i had no voice at all
and the song
came straight from my heart;

i had to let my heart sing,
and like
cosmic sonar
the song made it’s way
to your dream
and you whispered to me,
what is
this
beautiful
feeling?

she’s the best
and
i’m a beast,
attracted
to her
like a force of nature

experience
life
through a
rational mind
and
you will find
that the kind of world
we are
in
is
in
the
imagination.

(written after deleting a poem i didn’t like, decided to automatically write)

you are writing shit.
stop thinking…
you are now automatically writing whatever comes from:

minds are a blessing

they require proper care
like an orange tree

you are
what you are going to be

For Jaybird

—

The beauty
of your soul
so wild and free
it’s the most beautiful thing i’ve ever seen
and it shines through you
like a star,
illuminating
the universe.

i kept my heart
at bay,
you could do it to me too;

you could do me like all the rest,
then i would be a fool,

and would have
had the best.